Saturday, January 29, 2011

World Premier Post

Howdy whomever may be reading this! I have decided that now may be a good time to start writing out my thoughts before they consume me...eek, Mental Cannibalism!  But, I digress, as I often do, a little about me to satisfy your prurient curiosities... At age 46, I have come to know that I am Transgendered, in fact, it's been nearly 10 years since i admitted this to myself. the transition itself? well, in a word, rocky. i look sort of like a cross between a biker and a trucker... not like Amy Acker <pictured above>.

Ahhh well, a girl can dream can't she? with luck, and lots of $$$$$$ i will be able to become the girl i know i am... it's up to skilled surgeons and science as to whether or not anyone will actually say "you're kinda pretty, Diana". That's what i hope for now... not so much glamour, not so much sexy <though that would be nice *wink*>, pretty will do me just fine.

 Wondering what the $$$$$$$ represent? well, at my last calculations, it will cost anywhere between 100,000.00 and 150,000.00 to make me into a girl... mostly surgery, some People ask me why i choose to walk this road... I tell them it's not really a choice, it's something that needs done, like corrective surgery for a heart murmur or any other birth defect... if i had a choice in the matter, I'd choose boring, plain most everyone... but the ache in my soul has driven me nearly crazy all of my life.

If you need to understand what i mean by ache, try wearing your shoes on the opposite feet for a day... now imagine the pain of the incorrect body on your soul...every day...forever... it's no wonder so many of the gender gifted take their lives or live with depression... it hurts.

Well, wasn't that cheerful... I'll try for more upbeat stuff next time...
Ta Ra for now,

1 comment:

  1. I've been getting the whole "why are you choosing this difficult path?" a lot myself. I so can relate.

    I think its beyond that for me. The question comes up at the gender clinic, "would you choose, if you could, to not be tg?" and I say no.

    I am vibrantly excited and proud to be a transwoman. I just need funding. ^_^